I'm barefoot.

You know..my title's the truth. I'm going to follow that. "the real me, unguarded and vulnerable"

To Give a Link Or To Not Give a Link

Awh, my nails truly dont look like that. rather a shiny, darker shade of purple with a few chips here and there. but what im referring to is rather, tricky..but then again it can be applied to a wide variety of scenarios..okay rather just two, no need to look at me that way.

Scenario Number Uno..(I found out recently that "numero" means "name" in Spanish, not "number;" I truly was a sad flower)Is whether or not i should send the link of my other blog. Im not sure I'll carry through with that one, for I'm a lot more comfortable sharing more personal tidbits on here now that I finally redid my layout. Seems a bit more me, dont ya think?
My other blog post, the only one i have on there, tells the tale of a little girl who was not sure of the events that were taking place but didnt speak up about them..my very night the other day. (that phrase just totally contradicted itself right there ahah) but yes, i completely, well pretty damn near, shut down until a very adorable boy rescued my from my mental rut. he is the other scenario..

Mr.(Blank) Hernandez. haha I'll write his name for i fear no wrath of any others!! haha i really should tho, who knows what crap could happen. but yes, my little summer romance has actually turned up. way up! when it first started i truly thought it was just games to begin with. but now that it seems more...more real than that im afraid ill leave here with a pretty long crack on my heart. i promised myself i wouldnt fall, ive weaved a net in my insides so i wont fall uncontrollably but i know that it will hurt to leave. its just, when i look into his eyes, i see so much more, feeling. but that could just be me putting a film over my eyes. oh how im not sure. but part of me feels secure in letting my feelings stand open bcz of what he's said, and what i can see in his eyes. but yet, in the back of my mind, guns are hot. i dont want to be played, but the other day when i was with him i wanted to blurt out that retched word! oh i know! awful!! i am not sure what im going to do, but i know my heart walked in before the rest of me. lets just hope im not some piece on his game board. wish me luck..

"The Truth Speaker.."

Is my name in Krystal's phone.
is it wrong that i want to be more open in my life on this thing?? why am i so afraid that someone will read my blog then out of nowhere i get sued for libel or worse! stupid girl drama sparked by endless nonsense spewed from the mouth of materially mindfucked youth!!
hahah it could happen!
and funny thing, why do all, or well most, alien movies take place in LA? thats like foreshadowing how fucked we are all going to be when the aliens come down to kill the gang bangers in the dirty socal area! lol they wouldnt be able to tell which from which bcz we are all messed up in the head!

but...ahhh...im going to break it to you..i never thought i would, but if i did never so soon...im...PREGNATE!!!!!
HAHAAHAH just kidding! i made a new blog that is more personal than this one, but i think i might intertwine the two. ill see. gotta go!
be back in a loooooooonnnngggg giffy!