wow. its been awhile since i felt this way before about someone.
anything really. i dont know i guess i'm really excited and hope i can have
my chance to make my special someone happy. but before i do that a decision has to be made. no its not really a decision... that sounds too official. its more of a choice, understanding of oneself and the direction he or mainly she wants to go. whatever you chose is fine with me. i care but i care more for your happiness love.
Friday, July 3, 2009
good morning! or good afternoon since i seem to just sleep past the morning
wow, yesterday was filled with a lot of things
i didnt know. and im glad i found them out. i
needed to find them out. well everything that
was said will help in the final decision.
good luck. i love the sunset.
i didnt know. and im glad i found them out. i
needed to find them out. well everything that
was said will help in the final decision.
good luck. i love the sunset.
Thursday, July 2, 2009
movies.
when i think about just sitting around and watching movies.
i think of a room with superman curtains.
i think of a room with superman curtains.
im pissed
he hurt me so many times before yet i still let him in.
he said he didnt have a gf. she thinks he's hers.
what the eff. get your story straight. im not here for you.
and you said you loved me.
what a JOKE!
he said he didnt have a gf. she thinks he's hers.
what the eff. get your story straight. im not here for you.
and you said you loved me.
what a JOKE!
Break Down.
this is exactly how i felt when i read those words.
hahah well apparently im an attractive
white and black beaner! hahaha love it!
but thats not all.... you knew once i
found out exactly how i felt about you that i
will always be here. no matter what im here.
friends first is what i go by and im
sticking to it. isn't it funny how someone
can hurt you soo bad but in a blink of an
eye all is forgotten? how a few simple
words can change such a hurtful past. its
so hilarious to me. its hard to break
the chain but like you said new days,
new worries, new lessons. ha i never
knew someone can read me so deeply.
seriousness and flirtatiousness?
exactly my place of expertise. on
the outside i may just be giggles
but on the inside the exact opposite.
serious, observant, analytic. haha
i love thesauruses. hmm honestly i
think you changed me. you made me
feel beautiful with whatever my
personal problem was. i felt more
daring...more confident looking
foward to seeing you everyday.
you still have no idea how i feel.
you were in a very sticky situation
and you made the right choice for
yourself and im proud of that.
you dont have to feel bad about how
i felt. it was mostly my fault for
not telling you. i know you care
for me and i truly care for you too.
your someone who i can just sit around
and relax with. thats what i love to
do. im not exactly myself around you
because im nervous still! haha but
im getting used to everything. i still
get butterflies when i get your texts tho.
haha i need a life. haha that sunday...
hmmmm... it was so hard to control myself.
honestly i was thinking about it the
whole time. hopefullly you's still feel
as strong for me as you did when this
is all over. we should try again....
hahah well apparently im an attractive
white and black beaner! hahaha love it!
but thats not all.... you knew once i
found out exactly how i felt about you that i
will always be here. no matter what im here.
friends first is what i go by and im
sticking to it. isn't it funny how someone
can hurt you soo bad but in a blink of an
eye all is forgotten? how a few simple
words can change such a hurtful past. its
so hilarious to me. its hard to break
the chain but like you said new days,
new worries, new lessons. ha i never
knew someone can read me so deeply.
seriousness and flirtatiousness?
exactly my place of expertise. on
the outside i may just be giggles
but on the inside the exact opposite.
serious, observant, analytic. haha
i love thesauruses. hmm honestly i
think you changed me. you made me
feel beautiful with whatever my
personal problem was. i felt more
daring...more confident looking
foward to seeing you everyday.
you still have no idea how i feel.
you were in a very sticky situation
and you made the right choice for
yourself and im proud of that.
you dont have to feel bad about how
i felt. it was mostly my fault for
not telling you. i know you care
for me and i truly care for you too.
your someone who i can just sit around
and relax with. thats what i love to
do. im not exactly myself around you
because im nervous still! haha but
im getting used to everything. i still
get butterflies when i get your texts tho.
haha i need a life. haha that sunday...
hmmmm... it was so hard to control myself.
honestly i was thinking about it the
whole time. hopefullly you's still feel
as strong for me as you did when this
is all over. we should try again....
I never really knew....
i am so sorry. everything. i never knew.
i never knew how she felt until i read what i read.
she better not EVER delete that bloggg. you know who you are.
wow. i know exactly how she feels. im sorry i was ever so judgemental.
i have a love that i know i will never forget and it will be a hard road when we finally go our seperate ways and that is exactly how she feels. she loves her.
and who am i to stand in her way.
i never knew how she felt until i read what i read.
she better not EVER delete that bloggg. you know who you are.
wow. i know exactly how she feels. im sorry i was ever so judgemental.
i have a love that i know i will never forget and it will be a hard road when we finally go our seperate ways and that is exactly how she feels. she loves her.
and who am i to stand in her way.
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
unfortunately
yeah im done. well for now at least.
no point in trying. it makes me feel pathetic honestly.
writing about how i feel when it doesn't really matter.
did it ever really matter?
and i dont even know how i did it.
how i was able to just hang out with you
without actually touching you.
it was hard, but i did it.
now lets see what else i can do.
no point in trying. it makes me feel pathetic honestly.
writing about how i feel when it doesn't really matter.
did it ever really matter?
and i dont even know how i did it.
how i was able to just hang out with you
without actually touching you.
it was hard, but i did it.
now lets see what else i can do.
wait one moment....
lets just admit it.
im jealous, but i aint guna quit it.
i see what she says about her girl.
which makes me hestitate how i feel.
and how i thought she felt.
i want to stop trying but i just cant let it go.
maybe i really should stop.
i just dont know what i should or shouldn't do.
was i really not meant for you?
im jealous, but i aint guna quit it.
i see what she says about her girl.
which makes me hestitate how i feel.
and how i thought she felt.
i want to stop trying but i just cant let it go.
maybe i really should stop.
i just dont know what i should or shouldn't do.
was i really not meant for you?
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