of emotions is creeping through every inch of my body.
i dont want to feel anymore.
i dont want to have to think anymore.
i dont want to be closed in my own thoughts any longer.
i want to run away, i just want to run away.
why is it now that everything falls into this whole
when for the longest it was as empty as empty could be?
why was it these hands that typed the emotions?
why were these thoughts the ones that crept through my mind
when asked those measly questions.
why were these emotions sparked?
i just want to run away and forget it all.
oh how my heart yearns for an escape.
my shoulders hunched in the direction forward.
aching to be free,
released.
no longer having to bare the emotional world i built
right above my hair strings.
right above my heart strings.
right above my heart string.
cut the rope. let it fall.
that wretched, beating thing
does not
need to live
at
all.
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
a book just hit my shoulder..
you think i really want to share now?
its funny how you try to preach all this rightous good shit,
but in the true hands your nothing but a hyperactive hypocrite.
he's playing on the computer and his friend is bored out of his mind.
it's not my problem. i am not the host. i don't mind whether they are having fun or not.
you are there just watching the telly, you see that the friend is bored,
so you come and as me. i am using whatever it is that you want.
so i say no. you get back bcz i dont see your line of vision.
you throw a book at me, now you really think i want to share,
for whatever the cause?
i actually most likely would of came around, but you didnt have to do that.
wipe that pathetic look off of your face.
i dont care how you feel..you're nothing but a brat.
entertain them yourself if you care so much
and leave me in my own little world.
leave me in my own little world.
leave me in my own little world.
its funny how you try to preach all this rightous good shit,
but in the true hands your nothing but a hyperactive hypocrite.
he's playing on the computer and his friend is bored out of his mind.
it's not my problem. i am not the host. i don't mind whether they are having fun or not.
you are there just watching the telly, you see that the friend is bored,
so you come and as me. i am using whatever it is that you want.
so i say no. you get back bcz i dont see your line of vision.
you throw a book at me, now you really think i want to share,
for whatever the cause?
i actually most likely would of came around, but you didnt have to do that.
wipe that pathetic look off of your face.
i dont care how you feel..you're nothing but a brat.
entertain them yourself if you care so much
and leave me in my own little world.
leave me in my own little world.
leave me in my own little world.
conference call..
sitting here, its 3:14 pm, and im waiting to speak to all time low.
conference calls, so far are fun. less nerve-wracking than a face to face interview, i prefer it this way. facial interactions are not always great, especially if you're not comfortable.
the lady in charge is reading over our names, ive never heard so many different high schools called on a role call.
i am nervous tho, i dont want my questions to seem unintelligent to everyone else listening.
im just really happy to recieve a link to the recording of this tomorrow..im not sure ill be able to get everything down..
conference calls, so far are fun. less nerve-wracking than a face to face interview, i prefer it this way. facial interactions are not always great, especially if you're not comfortable.
the lady in charge is reading over our names, ive never heard so many different high schools called on a role call.
i am nervous tho, i dont want my questions to seem unintelligent to everyone else listening.
im just really happy to recieve a link to the recording of this tomorrow..im not sure ill be able to get everything down..
why do watches make me feel..
claustrophobic?
twas the night before..well any night..
i recieved an invitation to enter that door once again..
all i had to do was click accept and
everything just came flooding back.
so many changes, so many fallen leaves.
only few are left to add beauty to the broken beast.
(gtg) continue this later.
twas the night before..well any night..
i recieved an invitation to enter that door once again..
all i had to do was click accept and
everything just came flooding back.
so many changes, so many fallen leaves.
only few are left to add beauty to the broken beast.
(gtg) continue this later.
"dark was the night"
revealing was the night.
dazed and confused was the day.
both of us were striped bare.
minds ravaged and raped through.
bodies yearning to move..to move closer..
through the spaces of empy matter and street lights.
..oh what is it that i have done?
there is no armor left protecting you.
i broke through, wist most of the help,
coming from..you.
now, will you ever get the chane to do the same to me,
instead of you?
will you?
ha will you..
dazed and confused was the day.
both of us were striped bare.
minds ravaged and raped through.
bodies yearning to move..to move closer..
through the spaces of empy matter and street lights.
..oh what is it that i have done?
there is no armor left protecting you.
i broke through, wist most of the help,
coming from..you.
now, will you ever get the chane to do the same to me,
instead of you?
will you?
ha will you..
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
my dogs bed..
i can close my eyes and see a heart.
vines are all around it,
suffocating it..keeping it together.
there is darkness surrounding the beating life form..
a red glow from within.
am i your red glow from within?
vines are all around it,
suffocating it..keeping it together.
there is darkness surrounding the beating life form..
a red glow from within.
am i your red glow from within?
Monday, March 21, 2011
"who in here is being honest?"
that is a very good question, who could the truth speaker be?
i really need to get my act together today. i have to call hsu, have to clean my room, call my grandpa, email my aunt, should email both but idk, email my grandmother, learn how to play the guitar, atleast one cord, put up my posters and do another facial. i have eleven hours and eight minutes until this day is over, shouldnt be so hard right? oh and fill out the two scholarships i have in my bad.
it shouldnt, yet i continuously dissapoint myself bcz i never complete the easy goals i set. i am a lazy procrastinater and i am completely upset right now bcz i am jjust sitting here writing this down when i could be doing on of the above. why am i still sitting here?
i really need to get my act together today. i have to call hsu, have to clean my room, call my grandpa, email my aunt, should email both but idk, email my grandmother, learn how to play the guitar, atleast one cord, put up my posters and do another facial. i have eleven hours and eight minutes until this day is over, shouldnt be so hard right? oh and fill out the two scholarships i have in my bad.
it shouldnt, yet i continuously dissapoint myself bcz i never complete the easy goals i set. i am a lazy procrastinater and i am completely upset right now bcz i am jjust sitting here writing this down when i could be doing on of the above. why am i still sitting here?
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