hmm theres this girl

well there's this girl i know. and i mean like a real girl i know im nit like saying this while really meaning me so yeah dnt worry.
ok well this girl recently kissed another girl. idk it was just a spur of the moment kind of thing i guess. well she told me she liked it and that the girl she kissed like it too. but now she thinks that she doesnt like her anymore. like the whole chase is gone. my friend still chases after her girl crush but im afraid she's starting to back off bcuz she feels like there is no interest coming back to her. i dont know what she should do. maybe things right now are going slow but will kick back up in like a week or two? or it was just a flirt till something happened and now its over. i have no idea. i told her to talk to that girl about it but she told me that it might just be a waste of time. oh boyyy
teen life is super confusing.

feddd upp

hola chicas and whomever
i know i havnt wrote in like a gazillion years
ive just not been that into it. idk i just need this school year to be over and i need to start new.
a lot has happened, but idk if im going to say.
ive just been in a rutt i guess. well hopefully i gett out of it soon ahaha im just not in the mood to do anything.
but im guna make the best outta it.
tootles <3

i'm back

hey i know it has been awhile but a lot of things have been up.
for one, we moved into a new house! i share a room with my sister and it isnt that bad only that she never cleans up anything!
second, i have really been involved in swimming. i started swimming for a long just this week and coach said she's already seen an improvement. i'm really excited! i cant wait to get my swimmer's muscles and lose some fat! not like i really have that much
third, im really tied up in school now. its crazy doind swim and all honors class. im glad the school year is almost up because i cant wait to start fresh and new.
well till next time,
sean antonia

hmmm...Thursday

Well i just got home from eating breakfast with my grandpa. what a day it has been so far. my mom took me to practice and she like practically kicked me out of the car bcuz she wanted to go back home and go to bed. that made me mad, but oh well, i was glad for her to leave bcuz i didnt have to be in her company. my grandpa picked me up from practice again today. im kind of glad too bcuz i didnt want to come home. today was kind of sad though because my grandpa teared up when we were talking about the lives of my mom's bf's daughters. hopefully they have goals because if not, they're not going to go anywhere in life. i hope that they get past these messed up times and make something of themselves.

All She Does Is Yell

How am i suppose to know what to do when all she does is yell? My mom cant seem to shut up. She keeps talking all this crap about me saying i dont know how to pack when she needs to explain it to me. How am i suppose to know what to do? I never had to pack before. I know i sound really dumb but I just cant handle all this stress. She just makes me seem stupid and this makes me not wnat to do anything right at all. I just want to say forget about it and leave me here. I certainly dont want to be is this family anyway. I hate it. Im practically being disowned because i told my mom's bf that i dont like him. Everything is just going downhill for me in this family. I feel like I dont belong and honestly I really feel like I dont. No one wants me here anyway. Im better of just living with my grandpa bcuz i cant handle the neglect and the disrespect I get in this house. It's unbearable and it makes me just want to be worse.

Thoughtful

"hmmmm.... let your mind run free"
Well it is kinda hard when im actually looking for something to write about.
Hmmm.... Got it!!
Today i was suppose to go to the beach with a whole bunch of my friends but my mom said no because there would be teenagers driving. I love my mom and everything but OMG! I need to breathe. I need my space. It's spring break and i haven't done anything all week! All i have left to do is homework and that is so not fun! Why cant she just let me go exploring? I promise to be home before she goes to bed. Hmph!

Topics??

Email me topics that you would like me to discuss. I'm open for anything.

Day One

Well this is my first day blogging and i have to say I'm really excited.I started this blog because I want people to know the real story about those kids who you see walking around causing trouble. For behind that facade is a whole different person. Some people don't take teens seriously and I just want to know, Why not? Remember when you were a teen and no one listened to you? Do you remember how you felt? Well, how do you think we feel? Hmm.. tough questions don't you think? Well, I'm going to stop nailing you because I really want you to continue reading because I have a lot to say that you might find of interest.
Till next time,
Sean Antonia