another chapter...

i'm growing up.

get up and feel the breeze.

i want to write, i need to write. i've had so much going on its crazy. my best friend and her problems, my boyfriend and his problems, my family and their problems and even my own. everything is all hectic but it's life. people go through things and they get out of it, that's just the way it goes.

i'll write more soon, just not now. im watching a movie! lol
forgetting sara marshall.

just pick up the guitar and go...

a new chapter,
a new realization,
a new open door for you to step through.
are you going to do it?
i would if i were you.
put the past behind you
and start fresh and new.
dont be scared, i'll be here.

listen

"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either and the two of you may never be perfect together, but if she can make you laugh, and cause you to think twice and admits to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there." - Bob Marley

first day of that dreaded place i have to spend most of my year at

today wasnt all that great, in fact it was aggravating. you know how when you were younger you were so excited to go back to school? well that feeling is completely lost. like landing on the sun by now lost.
before school was ok, got my new schedule even thought nothing really changed but oh well.
first period was pretty ok. i have honors trig which hopefully isnt that hard and if it is and i absolutely cant do it i'll just change to college prep. but other than that i seems like a pretty chill morning class.
second period i have phsyiology honors which is ok, it just aggravated me that we had a sub on the first day and we had to read the whole hour! like wtf? and i dislike the sub very muh because for one she looks like a pigeon and two she has the most irritating voie it just makes you want to slap her. i try to be nice but she just makes me feel like being a bitch to her, thats mean. i'll be nice i promise.
third period is ok, i have asb and mr. satterfield likes me so thats good its just some of the ppl in there seem a little too ghetto to be in that kinnda class but what do i know? its only the first day of school.
ooh and i had to do the announcements today too which was pretty nerve wracking. i get nervous over the most smallest things, its irritating. but i did better than i thought. i just have to speak up but thats cool.
lunch was irritating because a certain person is an over jealous, ignorant prick who is a big baby, but im no longer mad about that, i kinda feel sorry for him, i did hurt him pretty bad. but oh well thats me for ya.
so then there is fourth period which will probably be my favorite class. i have journalism fourth period, which is great! i love it already, im excited.
fifth period i have ap english which seems pretty cool, i like the teacher but i practically could not keep my eyes open today! its was dreadful! i hope she didnt see me, i couldnt help myself, i felt so bad but i was just sooo tired i couldnt help myself.
but sixth period seems like its going to be great, a lot of work, but great. i have ap world history and the teacher seems pretty chill and funny, he looks like he can be an asswhole but only if you dnt play your cards right.


highlight of the day: sitting here at home, finally!
lowlight of the day: not being home, being surrounded my ignorant idiots and have to actually go somewhere.

i want summer to be starting already! wheres my damn time machine?
i still cant believe its school already

in my room.

2:40 pm
monday...eeekk

school starts tomorrow.
oh yippie!people.
haha well its not that bad i guess,
i just have to stop being lazy now.
which is going to be hard.
my mo says i have my head in the clouds.
there is a hellicopter flying up above my head.
well more like outside my window
i just started 'across the universe'
i'm afraid im officially obsessed.
well im waiting for my grandpa
to come and pick up my sister, mom and i
to take us shopping.
i need some new shorts and pants and a bra
oh and some new flippers (flip floppers, you know flip flops?)
haha oh hey why not hte beah? right now right now? this very second?
we should go.
oh grandpa please hurry

right now

i should blog but i just dont think im feeling it.

the inconsiderate you.

"Just bcuz ppl do certain things that you dont approve of, doesnt mean you have to look down on them, for you are no better then they are."

"who r u to judge the life i live? i'm not perfect and i dont live to be, but b4 you strt pointing fingers, make sure your hands are clean."-Bob Marley

after everything i've done for you, your going to say things like that. and yet you wonder why im so mean to you?
the way you treat me, no wonder i act so mean for in truth you're worse than i am.
the things you say are so hurtful, i feel so fragile bcuz they tear at my heart. you have no idea how your words effect me. do you really think of me so low? i dont see why, you by farr are no better than i. we are suppose to be flesh and blood, stronger than any bond, able to withstand the toughest obstacles.but the toughest obstacle for me is to control myself from not distroying you. i'm done with this, you have no respect for me and that's not right. just two more years and i'll be gone and you'll regret this....just think, am i really going to talk to you once i move out? honestly maya. i'm done with how you treat me and what you say, i'm stronger than you think i am. just realize that, i've been through more than you know so just watch out bcuz one day you're going to eat your words and i'll stand there watching you as you slowly but surely realize how your words have effected me...

keep looking up....

things have been going really good. for one, i told my mom that i drive around with my friends and go to lunch and surprisingly she didn't trip. i remember that during school she flipped out and started crying because i wanted to ride to the beach with my friends while jade's boyfriend was driving and he's 18 with a liscense and perfect record. haha well yeah she's crazy but i think she's slowly figuring it out that im growing up. in fact she didn't really even care that i went to andrew's house saturday. i like the new found freedom but i know im going to miss being a kid but its inevitable, everyone has to grow up sometime.

just got backkk

the beach was really funn. i had a good time and i even got a bracelet lmao. i got darker surprisingly but you can still see my swimmer's tann. all together it's been a great day so far and an awesome weekend! cant wait to see what this week has in store....