To Bring About Change..

My recent blogs have been all about my inner feelings and emotions, but I think I am going to add one more genre to my endless writing nonsense. I was on Lookbook.nu earlier and I got inspired to be a tad bit different. I know that i usually don't write about fashion, but more of personal entries but I think I am going to make a change of that. I want to expand my horizons into more of the fashion world and if that means posting photos of my fashion sense onto my blog and then writing about it, then so be it. I always like to talk about nearly everything but I tend to stick to problems rather then "things," I guess you can say, on my blog. Ah I keep beating around the bush I think. I guess this whole post was just a release for me to believe, start, and get going on bringing about change to my never ending blog. I hope I dont disappoint.

Situation.

I have a dilema. I know I like girls and all but does that bring out my masculinity? I guess my real question is, do I look gay? Bcz I like boys also but I don't want my physical appearance to be a turn off for guys. What do you think? I know I should just be comfortable but maybe deep down there are a few more problems besides how I look.

Today.

Today is going to be fun, different. Right now I'm visiting my grandparents with my sister. It has been going well, I love spending time with them but I mean you have to be on your best behavior always right?

Life.

Life has been a bit awry lately, but i suppose that is the outcome of the path that my life has chosen lately. to be honest, i dont know how i stand with anything anymore. i am pretty lost. i just hope that this week away will help me get things on track. i hope so. i had a lot more to say but i guess its all lost now. i cant put things into words right right now. im just too scrambled in my mind to write everythying down right now. i will later tho. whoever reads this, comment it. i would like to know how my words are interpretted into the mind of others.