Sleep with one eye open...

Is it bad that I have theeeee perfect scheme for tomorrow? And is it bad that I treat my life more like a movie than reality?
Oh no I dont think so(;

But maybe I just have mental disabilities? Haha yes, I say so(:

I have green curtains on my window.

I leave in three weeks.
I return in five months.
Leave three weeks later.
Return five months after that.
Here for three months.
Then start the cycle all over again.
I've given him up to two years.
I really hope I can have him forever, but only
Time will tell, please let time be on our side.

I better get some sleep, I have a doctors appointment
Tomorrow morning to get a whole bunch of shots
For college. The only shots I like are ones full of vodka.
I need to grow a pair and out of needing chasers.
I also need a pair of black wedge booties
And some oxfords. Along with two good pairs of pants(:
Oh yes, in three weeks I doubt I'll ever show any leg
Outside of my dorm. Better invest in some self tanner
Bcz I will not be white and sun derived. Oh no no no.
Goodnight world, goodnight you<3

Butter and Jam on my Bread Please

Hand in hand in the horizons. Two sets of feet.
Your hand curved, my hand curved, together we make a heartbeat.
Nearer nearer, time draws near.
The string still pulls, continue it will.
As the miles creep, the cracks grow deep.
Our ears are red, our heart will burn,
The sun is hot while the earth turns.
Like clay we mold, like life we grow old
Like love we're felt, but never told.
Hand in hand, your feet draw near.
Hand in hand, there is no need to fear.
Open the window, draw the breeze,
Take a deep breath, then squeeze
The hand in your hand is real, the love in your heart is true
Forever mine is forever you.
Peel back the skin, break through the glass,
Take the step to let me in.
Cradle in your arms, look me deep in the eye
There you will see our night sky.
It's very dark, yet the stars are still alit.
Seven hundred miles, yet you'll still feel the touch of my lips.
The scent of my skin, the warmth you get within.
Hang my picture on your heart, while our family photo
Hangs on a wall, visible from our future patio.
Hand in hand, well walk the beach.
Heart in heart, no space to reach.
I'm next to you as you are me, no need to not
Breath in sync with me,
As our heartbeats strum to the tree.
Hand in hand, forever it will be.

After All, Sondre Lerche

"After All"

I like you too much
After too little time
I hold back my hearts crazy rambling
The fear that I should overwhelm your smile
Frightens the spiders inside me

Oh this could be magic
After all, after all


It started out as just a game, another toy to play with. I juggled a few for awhile but I just couldn't do it.
But after that day, you saved me. You brought me out when I was falling into a deep mental rut.
You pulled me to safety, you were my savior. And that's when everything fell into place. That's when I fell in love with you.
From that day on, I'll always love you, as you will me.
You told me I was your best friend, that you'll always be there for me.
That you care for me so much, nd how much you'll miss me.
I made you promise to come see me, and you did, promise that is.
It will be a true test of time if you do.
You've made me realize what I've missed, what I've been missing, what I never had.
It was love, not just another one, not a "what if" and a "finally did it".
It was the best any girl could ask for, bcz it was from the heart.
You feel so much, I can see it in your face, hear it in your words, feel it in your touch.
This will be the summer Ill never forget
And you'll be the one I'll always miss.
I'll leave here with the feeling of happiness in my heart.
Ill leave here with the luxury of being able to look back and smile at the times we had.
The moments we shared. The feelings we felt.
Youve given me the summer I'll never forget, the one that restored my heart.
I'll never stop loving you.