why..

why do i feel so much, why can i write so much about you..
why to i tie my emotions to you?











over it.

the door opens, the door closes...

rather the screen door is set ajar,
never fully opening, never securely closing..
it's constant..the embarrassment i feel when i think of you
and me, and how we used to be..how dare you be so cruel.
i don't want to know how you are, i don't care.
for all i wish, you are sitting on the bottom of the ocean
face blue, suffering, no air..suffering as i suffered..do you feel that faint
comfortability of pain?
i did, i still do when i think of you..
i hate you with all of what is left of my heart, for the former was spent loving you.
god i wish i had only moved away sooner. i wish i never remembered your number..
further, i wish i had never met you, my life would of been so much more complete
if i had never laid eyes on your unmistakable beauty.
it's always worse when i go to sleep and when i wake up..
why did you leave such a lasting impression on me?
why is it that i still feel such pain?
i hate you, i hate you so much it's unbelievable.
it sickens me to say your name aloud, but if you
would ask to have me back i'd be there in a heartbeat.


why must i feel this way?
a mistake pain on a mistaken day.
a broken heart given way,
to sail the corners of the ocean,
the waves at bay..the rose
sits in the glass, my heart is
pierced forever last.

the girl in the looking glass

life was going by so peaceful, i only thought of you from day to day..
and now our life come's flooding back..what do you see me as? your
personal joke to look back and laugh over? were my feelings always a joke to you?
or are you really just so...?

one

one thing i want before i die..own a pair of christian louboutins.

lookbook.nu/seanantonia

outfit ideas:

-blue leotard, black poof skirt(mayas), necklaces, black steve maddens

-something with a blazer...today is dress up day(:

-more ideas to come...just had stylist block..