Okay now there is this huge dilemma about restrooms, I feel, in the college life. The true issue of that statement however, is not being able to take a shit in the restrooms because of the awkward embarrassment. And then the one thing about me is that whenever I'm in the restroom I start day dreaming as if I'm asleep in the bathroom so I get freaked out thinking I'm peeing in my sleep. Everything is just so wacked out but I mean it takes time for comfortability to kick in, and in the end, that's all what we're waiting for.
Saturday, August 20, 2011
Friday, August 19, 2011
Ranch Vs. Ketchup
"Don't Drop Your Arms"
I'd say, I'm pretty set. I'm a freshmen here at HSU facing the challenge of my comfort zone, along with the dreaded quest of finding "Me." Today I changed about three times, drew an abstract picture for my dorm, and made a list of all the stuff I have to do tomorrow. Nowadays everything is just full of lists, full of not forgetting and remembering. Things to worry about, to fear, to ponder over. I'm constantly running marathons in my mind. I'm worrying about money, how I'm suppose to pay for my books, where I should get a job, how soon I really need to get one. Reality bites and having so much to stress on really is just the icing on the cake. This summer I suppose I was "on it" with my academics but I guess I wasn't so in control of my physical self. I mean I weigh the same, but my muscle seemed to of disintegrated. Tomorrow all of my roommates and I are planning to walk down to the beach but I think I really need to do some "Me" time tomorrow. Make some space for some mental adjustments in a clear and airy environment, i.e. the square or something outside on campus. Ill take my phone, my keys, a sketching pencil, my ipad, and my sketch pad. Time to be creative. I do also need to run some errands and find the gym around here. My problem is, I'm so damn inpatient and it kills me eveery single time bcz then I turn to stressing out and panicking. It does me no good but I seem to not be able to breath. I need to get some netflix or rhapsody. I need to update my playlists, figure out my finances, maybe buy some milk. Everything now that, well it really is just dawning on me, a grown up. Every feel like reality just steals your breath away? Yeah that's how I'm feeling now, but on the inside. I can't really show my panicky side right about now. But I will take a quick break to answer a text.
I'm back. With a whole lot more questions. As in, now that I'm at Humboldt, will I fall into the categorization? Gee I hope not. I want to be a level headed, smart adult, not a caught up, cracked out teen. Maybe I need a tv? No, no I don't. I need to breath, make some lists, exert my worries and just relax. Maybe some time in the jacuzzi might work, or a jog down the way. I need to be doing something. I need to put music on my blackberry, or at least learn how to hold meditation in a run. Maybe I just need a nap, but I can't nap till I wash my face and brush my teeth, but maybe its to early for that. What I need to do is get back on my laptop. Gotta go I guess.
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I'd say, I'm pretty set. I'm a freshmen here at HSU facing the challenge of my comfort zone, along with the dreaded quest of finding "Me." Today I changed about three times, drew an abstract picture for my dorm, and made a list of all the stuff I have to do tomorrow. Nowadays everything is just full of lists, full of not forgetting and remembering. Things to worry about, to fear, to ponder over. I'm constantly running marathons in my mind. I'm worrying about money, how I'm suppose to pay for my books, where I should get a job, how soon I really need to get one. Reality bites and having so much to stress on really is just the icing on the cake. This summer I suppose I was "on it" with my academics but I guess I wasn't so in control of my physical self. I mean I weigh the same, but my muscle seemed to of disintegrated. Tomorrow all of my roommates and I are planning to walk down to the beach but I think I really need to do some "Me" time tomorrow. Make some space for some mental adjustments in a clear and airy environment, i.e. the square or something outside on campus. Ill take my phone, my keys, a sketching pencil, my ipad, and my sketch pad. Time to be creative. I do also need to run some errands and find the gym around here. My problem is, I'm so damn inpatient and it kills me eveery single time bcz then I turn to stressing out and panicking. It does me no good but I seem to not be able to breath. I need to get some netflix or rhapsody. I need to update my playlists, figure out my finances, maybe buy some milk. Everything now that, well it really is just dawning on me, a grown up. Every feel like reality just steals your breath away? Yeah that's how I'm feeling now, but on the inside. I can't really show my panicky side right about now. But I will take a quick break to answer a text.
I'm back. With a whole lot more questions. As in, now that I'm at Humboldt, will I fall into the categorization? Gee I hope not. I want to be a level headed, smart adult, not a caught up, cracked out teen. Maybe I need a tv? No, no I don't. I need to breath, make some lists, exert my worries and just relax. Maybe some time in the jacuzzi might work, or a jog down the way. I need to be doing something. I need to put music on my blackberry, or at least learn how to hold meditation in a run. Maybe I just need a nap, but I can't nap till I wash my face and brush my teeth, but maybe its to early for that. What I need to do is get back on my laptop. Gotta go I guess.
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