Break Down.

this is exactly how i felt when i read those words.

hahah well apparently im an attractive
white and black beaner! hahaha love it!
but thats not all.... you knew once i
found out exactly how i felt about you that i
will always be here. no matter what im here.
friends first is what i go by and im
sticking to it. isn't it funny how someone
can hurt you soo bad but in a blink of an
eye all is forgotten? how a few simple
words can change such a hurtful past. its
so hilarious to me. its hard to break
the chain but like you said new days,
new worries, new lessons. ha i never
knew someone can read me so deeply.
seriousness and flirtatiousness?
exactly my place of expertise. on
the outside i may just be giggles
but on the inside the exact opposite.
serious, observant, analytic. haha
i love thesauruses. hmm honestly i
think you changed me. you made me
feel beautiful with whatever my
personal problem was. i felt more
daring...more confident looking
foward to seeing you everyday.
you still have no idea how i feel.
you were in a very sticky situation
and you made the right choice for
yourself and im proud of that.
you dont have to feel bad about how
i felt. it was mostly my fault for
not telling you. i know you care
for me and i truly care for you too.
your someone who i can just sit around
and relax with. thats what i love to
do. im not exactly myself around you
because im nervous still! haha but
im getting used to everything. i still
get butterflies when i get your texts tho.
haha i need a life. haha that sunday...
hmmmm... it was so hard to control myself.
honestly i was thinking about it the
whole time. hopefullly you's still feel
as strong for me as you did when this
is all over. we should try again....