epiphany

dont you see the sacrifices i take
in order to make you happy?
the chances i take
for you to not feel pain
i was never this way
i never used to care
but with you
i wouldn't dare
to stab at you
as you do me.
i go along with what you say
because i dont want you to be hurt.
i rather hurt me
then have you feel pain.
i dont enjoy the same things you do
so when i let you have your way
its only benefiting you
you may think thats its what i want
but in truth
it's all for you.
you like the power
the control i let you
have over me
for if i take demand
you wont like it.
you'll want to hurt me
because im stepping up to help myself.
you feel powerless
when your not in command.
dont you think that i dont know
what you feel,
what you know.
im in your head.
but i dont make an effect.
i see through your eyes
but you still try and take control
you didnt have control when you were younger
so now your taking that revenge on me
trying to feel
what you should of felt on me
dont you see?
i already know too much.
i can easily hurt you but i dont.
i wont take the risk
for i love you too much.

just please, for me
listen to what i say.
dont just hear it.
listen. take it in.
take your actions
but show that you know
how i feel
show me that you love me
and you really care.
bcz if you dont
i no longer will be here.